Chapter 17 – Chapter 17
Part Seventeen
Thom and I slept together the entire week, but we did not sex each other. We never had, and-for whatever reason-I was not ready for it. But, I was ready for the intimacy that preceded sex. So, we kissed, nuzzled, held hands and each other, spooned on the lounge chairs and in bed, and generally touched each other a lot. Before the week was over, Thom was planning to spend the summer with us.
Kurt had been right. Costa Rica was a happy place, and we were happy there. When we needed more than each other, we headed to the public beach or to Cafe Milagro, at the top of the hill.
The boys seemed as excited by Thom's pending return as I was. They thought the summer would be a "dry run" and, if it went well, then Thom would become a permanent in our home. I was not so sure. The ghost of Teddy hung over me, and no amount of rationality could purge it from my thoughts. Still, the hint of love was in the air. I just was not sure I could take the hint.
There was no surprise when Thom arrived. I took him and his bags to my room. I pulled him into an embrace and told him I was glad he was there. Then, I left him alone to unpack, clean up, and settle in.
Over dinner, I watched Thom and the boys with each other. Thom was a natural with them, and their affection for him-including Matthew's-was obvious.
Watching them together resolved my hesitation. It was clear we fit together as a family. The only question was whether Thom and I could fit together as a couple. I decided to find out.
While the boys cleaned up the kitchen, I asked Thom if I could talk to him privately. He looked at me quizzically, but said sure. We went to my room. After I closed the door behind us, I took him into my arms, pressed my mouth to his, and kissed him as deeply as I could, replacing the gentleness of our Spring Break kisses with a hunger that shocked me.
Thom was taller than me and, disappointingly, stronger. He was also probably hungrier. He quickly dominated the kiss, pushing his tongue into my mouth and his body into mine. Thom moved me to the bed and started to undress me. He quickly had me naked and in his mouth. I had not been sexed for almost 18 months, and masturbation is no substitute for a good blow job. And, his was a good blow job, long and deep. I quickly came in Thom's mouth. After draining me, Thom smiled at me and told me I tasted as good as he expected.
I wanted Thom to fuck me, and I let him know by grabbing his belt, undoing it, unbuttoning his Levi's, ripping his zipper down, and laying back on the bed.
"I don't have a condom."
"I don't care. I trust you."
Thom pulled me to the edge of the bed and pulled my legs up over his shoulders. He used his spit for lube. He had a bigger cock than I expected, bigger even than Teddy's. I had regained some resistance, so it took some effort to make the sex happen. We exerted the effort, and Thom was inside me. I felt his hair against my ass as he pressed all the way in and paused so I could relax and adjust to him. I looked into his eyes, and he looked back into mine. We did not break eye contact as he slowly pulled back and pushed back in, over and over, gradually picking up the pace as his orgasm built against my prostate. As he got closer, he used his shoulders to push my legs to my shoulders, and he bent over and kissed me. He panted he loved me as he came, filling me. When he did, I came all over my abdomen and stomach. I grabbed Thom's face, pressing my mouth to his and demanding that his tongue probe the depths of my mouth.
"I love you, too, Thommy. I really do."
"I'm glad," he responded. "I really am."
The doubts were settled. Thom's "dry run" was supposed to last 6 weeks, but it was settled in 6 hours. He would resign his tenured professorship at NULS. He would sell his awesome Lake Shore condo and his BMW. He would move to Makanda, share my bed, share our house, and share responsibility for Matthew, Mark, Kurt, and Kyle. He would live with the ghost of Teddy, but he would not have to live with the possibility of Teddy. He would have to live only with the possibility of Kevin and Thom.